Recently

Yesterday I got out of school around 11:50 am.  Then I went to go pick up Brian's mom :) I told you before that she was here to decorate his house so we planned to go to a lot of different places. I was starving so we agreed to go to Genghis grill. Which I was sooooo happy about that is my absolute favorite restaurant. The problem is I can never find anyone to go with me. My parents, boyfriend everyone is sick of going because I wore them out of it. You can really tell I like it huh? So I coned her into going with me and the thing is she is a super picky eater! Like when we all went out to a restaurant before  she ordered a salad and she got it with no salad dressing. She doesn't eat any type of dressing and a whole bunch of other stuff she is such a picky eater. That means Genghis was perfect though because you choose everything yourself. She ended up loving it. After that we started to go shopping she likes going to Goodwills to find old furniture to re do. I've seen some of her before and afters and shes really good.  So we found a goodwill and I couldn't help but laugh because it was me and her and then both of our GPS's trying to find this place. I kept thinking if Brian was in the back seat he would be laughing so hard because we did so many U turns. After we finally found the place we went to a whole bunch of other places there really isn't a lot of options where I live so we had to work with what we got. I really enjoyed spending time with her she is a great woman. She always bugs Brian about when we are going to get married because she wants grandchildren already. I dropped her off and then went home to get ready for church.

Before church we were all going to meet up at Chili's for dinner this was the first time our parents were going to meet and I was nervous. Everything ended up going great we had a nice dinner and talked about all sorts of things some topics I had no clue how we even got there. It was  a lot of fun. When we finished eating my parents went home then me Brian and his mom went to the church. Its been a long time since she has seen him play. (If you didn't know my boyfriend plays the keyboard, he is so blessed with it too. He's one of those people that he could just hear it and then he could play it perfectly.) We got to church right on time. I was shocked because  there wasn't a lot of people there. Maybe school had something going on or it was because of the weather. Shocking but we are actually suppose to be getting winter like weather finally. It was fun having his mom there though. I could tell she was really proud to see him there on stage. Yesterday was a great day I got to bound with my hopefully future mother in law and our parents finally met.

I got home and Brian called me. He was talking about doing Thanksgiving together because he's going to see his family the week before so he would be here and that he would even do black Friday with me! The thing is though we normally go down to San Antonio because that's where all my family is. We normally go to my aunts house and celebrate there around noon the for a early dinner we go to my dads parents house.  I ran downstairs and asked my mom if that would even be a possibility of Brian being able to go with us. She said she doesn't see a problem with that. That would be so cool! I have never had a boyfriend that met my whole family before. Like my cousins bring their boyfriends around because they live there but me never. That would mean Brian meeting everyone. I'm so excited I hope it works out that way.

Today my day went by so fast during lunch I went to the mall to look at otter boxes. I forgot to tell you I finally got my new Iphone ordered. I went two days ago and they were completely out of stock even the warehouse was. Yesterday they called and told me that I would be getting it in two to five business days so I'm excited. Lets see what else happened today I went to Heb because I'm going to make a delicious pot roast tomorrow. Hopefully it turns out great. I don't know how to cook but for some reason I have the sudden urge to learn , we will see how that goes. My boyfriends gone for the weekend because its open season for deer hunting yes I know horrible I'm not for it either but its a big family thing for him so I hope he has a great time. I just get a weekend all to myself.

All is well in paradise/ Halloweeeeeny

Two days ago, well you could  tell Brian had a lot on his mind too. We went to Church Sunday morning  but it was awkward we weren't fighting but you know I was having issues with him and I guess he was having issues with me. His mom came down to decorate his house and she got here early so she showed up at the Church. After second service I guess everyone was going out to eat I decided to go home because I already decided I was going to cook up some tortillas soup. It turned out delicious. He didn't talk to me for the rest of the day until probably 6 o clock. He just went off I felt like he's been angry about things and just ready to let me have it. Well they were minor and over jealousy stuff which I was glad to talk through to him. Then I told him my issues and I got to the point I was feeling hurt and at this point I didn't know if we were still going to be together. We still are though, are and long story short it ended with him saying how much I meant to him and if he could he would marry me tomorrow. Since then we have been great he has been treating me like queen :) we are more affectionate to each other and everything just feels right. I guess sometimes you just have to say it how it is if you want to save your relationship. 
For Halloween I went over to his new place and his mom cooked us dinner. Before we ate we went to go find pumpkins to carve and candy for the trick or treaters. Who new that on Halloween every store would be sold out of pumpkins. We ended up getting the small ones. When we got back we ate the delicious pot roast with carrots and potatoes and then started to draw out what we were going to carve on our pumpkins. Brian drew a bat I drew a cat and his mom said hers was a surprise. Trying to carve little pumpkins was definitely hard work and we gave up probably 20 minutes in. His mom actually one with the pumpkin carving I loved hers here's a picture.

After we finished and started to clean up my lip got a swollen bump on one side and I got huge bumps on my legs... I'm allergic to pumpkins.  I had know idea. We had a great time I love spending time with him and his family and I'm glad we always fix any dilemmas we have in our relationship. It was a fun Halloween except for the hives and huge lip!

My minor issue.

I love my boyfriend don't misunderstand me. We've been dating a long time and I'm happy. This post is going to make me come off rude and stuck up but what I write is normally stuff I'll think but never say or act on. One thing I love about my relationship is that the honey mood always comes back. You know some relationships where of course its the honey moon stage in the beginning but then it just dies and then not to far after so does the relationship. Well the honeymoon stage for us has never died, if we ever get into a bad fight whenever we make up we are back to being completely in love with each other. That's not my issue. There is this book called The Five Love Languages. Its a great book for marriage, relationships everything. Its basically everyone has a love tank but how we get our love tank full is different for everyone. For instance the five love languages are how you receive love they are gifts, touch, act of service, words of affirmation, and quality time. Here's where I look bad haha my love language is words of affirmation. I'm a neeeeeeedy little thing when it comes to being told I love you or I'm beautiful. Its how I know he loves me. He can do all this stuff for me but it wont mean as much as him saying you look great today baby.Well I realized that we were raised in very different homes I come from a very affectionate family that we say I love you when we are about to get off the phone and  him and his family are the complete opposite so its kind of hard to get him to be affectionate with words. With my relationships in high school I felt special whoever I was dating always told my how beautiful I was and basically made it known how happy they were to be with me. My boyfriend now I actually fell like I'm not special at all that he could just be as happy with any other girl. I use to feel like I was something to brag about or be proud of now not even close. While I've beenin this relationship I have noticed that my self esteem has gone down a lot. I start to think well I guess I'm not as pretty because yeah I have gained a few pounds so maybe that's it, but really its just because I don't get any verbal feedback from him. I don't want you to think he's some horrible rude guy. He's great he does a lot for me and stuff but like I said he doesn't fulfill the way that I perceive love, and I have talked to him about it you know just remind me how you feel about me about us anything make it up do something but just nothing. I just want to feel like I'm worth something to him not just be expected to know what he thinks and feels all the time.

Today was my grandpa's 89th birthday! woohooo

We went down to San Antonio to visit my grandpa for his birthday. It was such a great day. There are not enough occasions in the year to get the whole family together so today was really nice. This man isn't even my blood grandpa, but out of all of my grandfathers he treats me the best. We have a really close relationship , he's such a great man. He served in World War II and thats a dying breed. Don't laugh at me but for his birthday I got him a card and cucumbers... haha it was more of a gag gift but he loved it. When we first moved back to Texas and my grandpa came up to our house he brought me a gift. He brought me cucumbers lol. We washed them and ate them right then and there. I was probably 7 at the time and I loved vegetables probably more than most kids at the time but I thought it was funny to do the same for him. I really enjoyed today I wish I could spend more time with him its just hard especially now with college. He's one of those people that your blessed to just have him in your life <3

Study Group

You know the problems with study groups. Having to make plans with a lot of people to hopefully meet at one place at the exact same time. I feel like I'm the coordinator because everyone gave me their numbers. So I texted everyone yesterday about meeting up today at thee at Hastings to study together. On Wednesday this was the best idea to them ever now no one has even texted me back... I'm kind of mad because I really need it but they do too I've seen their test scores. I'm actually considering dropping this class, because I just see no way of me passing. I have not passed one test yet and I don't want my GPA to go down because of one stupid HARD class.  I don't know what I'm going to do but I think I've come up with some good ideas to study just for my self. Quizzlet.com is basically online note cards, you fill them out. It helps you memorize things because it makes games out of things and stuff. It helped me out a lot in my phlebotomy class so maybe it will work for biology too. Wish me luck!

Thursday is over!

I love college just because my Thursdays are now my Fridays :) but other than that I kind of hate it. I feel like I wasn't prepared at all for it. I mean I thought college was suppose to be easy and its actually really kicking my butt. For instance Psychology Life span and development. It never fails that every time I think I did really good on a test I failed...and every time I think I failed I get like an A. It's stressing me out. I've actually considered dropping my biology classes just because everyone is failing. I think the problem is that nothing is made to be understood. Every simple thing is built up to be so complicated no one can even get their head wrapped around it. What else happened today hmmm okay I have an issue so I've mentioned before that my boyfriend has gotten his own house. Before he had roommates like 4 of them so me going over there was no problem for my parents.Well I'm nervous that now that he is going to have his own place I'm not going to be able to go to his house anymore. Which is weird because I am 18 years old technically I can do what ever I want. Should I be allowed to go to my boyfriends house? I'm so use to being on such a short leash with my parents that growing up is kind of hard. I guess I go back to thinking about if I had decided to leave the house and go to a college not near my home.They wouldn't be able to tell me my every move. I feel like that in this point of my life they need to just hope they raised me right so I make the right decisions and start letting go. I don't even have a curfew I just have to tell them everything I'm doing at all times and then come straight home. Is it just me or does it sound a little harsh?

Great news

My dad has had a cancer scare for going on 2 months now. It's put a lot of stress on our family. You know how men get when they are worried about something but dont want to show it. They just start acting different? Well thats what happened. It was sad watching my parents just worry. Well today we finally got the results of my dads biopsy and everything was negative! My dad does not have cancer! Thank God :) I was so happy to find out the news I know my dad did not sleep at all last night but I know all of us will be sleeping a lot easier from now on. Today I surprised him at work to take him to lunch. I'm so happy about how things turned out. I could not imagine what life would be like with out my dad.