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Background information.
I dated Jacob my junior year of high school. It was a great relationship we never fought and it was always an exciting time with him. He was just one of those people that could always make you laugh. We that year Christmas break I went to spend Christmas with my father so I left for about a week. Jacob cheated on me while i was gone and I was devastated. I got so upset my aunt wanted to take me to the hospital because I started hyperventilating. I have never been hurt before. For months and months after that I would still dream of him every night. I would think of him quite often and would always wonder about him. Because I could never stop thinking of him, I honestly believe he was my first real love. That was the first time a screwed me over. A year after that so last summer I think. He started talking to me again. You know how it is of course I got excited I was cautious but I was also dumb. I gave him a shot. I agreed to hang out with him and catch up. Turns out I wasn't the only girl he was talking to at the time. I wen to his place when he told me too and his roommates told me he was with this other girl. Once again I dropped him like nothing but it till hurt. I got back to the mind thinking there could be an us again. I know dumb me.

Well guess who called last night after years. Yup you got it Jacob.
I was shocked but I was curious. He told me he missed me and that he still loves me. That the past 2 years hes been miserable because I wasn't in his life. He told me he was dumb and an asshole for everything he's ever done to me and how I was the best thing that ever happened to him and he just treated me like shit. I'm using his exact words he was very very very vulgar.Can you imagine how I felt? I felt powerful, I let that boy screw me over twice and I have never been hurt before like that, and i got an apology. He told me when he goes on my facebook he sees Brians arm around me and it makes him sick. Which is funny because hes not my friend on facebook so that means hes looking me up. This whole time I thought he must have done better than me. To find out he never could that after 2 years and he's realized it, I feel pretty darn good. He called me a good 18 times because he would get mad at how happy I am with Brian and hang up. It was a strange night. A lot of good came out of it. I feel better about everything. Maybe now I can let him go completely. It also showed me how great I have it with the man that I'm with now. The one that wont hurt me and cherishes me.

Christmas Stroll

The weather was murky, and was suppose to be pouring rain but we decided to give it a shot anyways. We went Saturday night to the Christmas stroll in salado. There wasn't a lot of people there I think mainly because of the weather. It was still fun. We did lots of walking and went to a lot of the little stores. I didn't get my hot chocolate because I was actually hot. Every 1/2 a mile there was a band playing Christmas songs and there was tons of places to buy yummy foods.We got kettle corn and I think the even put some cinnamon in it. We all enjoyed ourselves, I loved seeing all the Christmas lights up. After that we all came home and me and Brian made gingerbread men. It was fun to decorate them. I mad some of us lol:

Casting crowns

Friday we went to go see Casting Crowns in concert. It was me, my parents and my dad even bought a ticket for Brian. We had a great time . It was The Afters, Sanctus Real , some girl I've never heard of and then Casting Crowns.  The put on a great performance. Theres just something about being in a room full of people that all believe the same thing you do. There were four men well young men in front of us and they were goofy but when it came down to it they had their hands in the air just worshiping. Seeing a lot of people do that always brings joy to my heart. There were people there from every age group. Young children to older people that were using walkers. All there for one purpose. To praise and to worship. Every one of the bands were really good I really enjoyed Sanctus real. The evening was great I love just lifting my hands and telling Him this is my time with you.

You have to love the holidays.

I love this time of year. Holiday after holiday seeing family you haven't seen for the other half of the year. The weather change and having to bundle up :) drinking hot drinks, baked goods, presents, love, happiness and new beginnings. As stressful and hectic as the holidays can get, it's the busiest time of year you never run out of things to do. I love that. I've mentioned before the little cute town in Salado. This weekend is the Christmas stroll. And if the weather permits I am so going! It's just a little stroll with vendors and all the Christmas lights are up. They have the horse and carriage going up and down the road and there are carolers. I'm excited to go with Brian just because it's kind of romantic. This event is what really sets me off into the Christmas spirit. The weather being chilly and drinking hot chocolate . It's a lot of fun and I just can not wait!

Your Great Name

Redeemer, My Healer, Lord Almighty
My savior, Defender, You are My King

Jesus, Worthy is the Lamb that was slain for us, Son of God and Man
You are high and lifted up; and all the world will praise Your great name

This song is "Your Great Name" by Natalie Grant.
I notice whenever I listen to this song in the morning on my way to school. I raise my hand to praise, but everyone in the oncoming traffic thinks I'm waving to them :)

Precious Puppy Love

Over Thanksgiving break I stayed with my grandma and aunt Mary. Let me give you some back up information . These are great Christian people that had a rough life. They live in San Antonio and in the worst part. My aunt Mary is the oldest of 4 sisters when my grandpa wasn't there my aunt stood up to be the breadwinner, she really never had a life of her own. Another thing is that Mary had a boyfriend (when she was in high school)and they were suppose to get married it didn't work out and she hasn't dated since. She's 55 well fifty something she might be younger than that. Anyways you get the point. It's been grandma and Mary my whole life you can't have one with out the other they are two peas on a pod. Which is sad because the other sisters got married with kids ect and Mary has just always been with my grandma she's never had a chance at her own life. Now the good part :)

Recently my aunt has bought a new gorgeous house which is great because where they lived before was the "hood" there was nothing but crime and there was never just peace and quiet. It was so bad that I was scared to stay there but by the grace of God nothing ever happened to them. They have a great brand new gorgeous house and now all they have to do is sell the old one. Well in the older house across the street a man died. Of course my grandma knew them they have lived there for like 40 years.

I'm going to skip forward in my story. The son of the man that died became very fond of my aunt. You have to know that this happened months ago. So I know that Mary has been talking to someone but not that much about it because I don't live there. The reason all of this came up is because I met him over thanksgiving. I really liked him. He's an older gentle but very sweet. When he came over he brought huge beautiful things of flowers one for Mary and one for my grandma. I'm so happy I hope they work out because if Something ever happened to my grandma my aunt would be alone. Thats really sad to think about but its true. When we were all sitting down just looking at black Friday adds. He showed my aunt a bbq pit and asked her if she wanted it for Christmas. Now that he's around he's helped them get there old house ready to sell and the new one ready to move into. She said he made it very clear that if she ever needed anything that he would be there. My aunt is very hesitant about getting in a relationship with him. By the end of the trip She admitted that she liked him and of course he REALLY liked her. I'm so happy or her I wish her the best because everyone needs a companion in life. One of my other aunts called the other day and said that they all got together at her house and my aunt Mary and Melchor ( the man that likes her) were holding hands.

I think they are they cutest thing, there is something about young puppy love but I don't think age matters at all, I wish her the best.

Its been a little while!

I've been so busy lately that I've forgotten to blog. Lets see My life is absolutely great right now like I have nothing to complain about. I'm happy with my Christian life my family life and my love life. School is still a little iffy but I'm getting a hold of it. Its only been my first semester so I'm not going to give up completely.
Lets see in earlier post I wrote about the fight I had with my boyfriend about going to his house. Well after talking to my parents about how all my intentions were good I finally went over. I had a great time. We cook chicken taquitos with cabbage that you sprinkled lime juice on. It was delicious. I love cooking with him. Its a lot of fun. After that we went to watch a movie. We decided to watch Death at a funeral. We thought it was the funny black people version but instead of that it was all British white people. We were in aw the whole movie. It was not what we expected at all. I had a great evening at first I was nervous but I got to thinking, that's kind of what it would be like to live there. I could so do it. Coming home to him. The thought gives me butterflies. 
 Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving by the way. So a big step happened over Thanksgiving Brian went with us. He met my whole family. That morning we had Thanksgiving at my moms moms house. We had a great time. My grandma loved my boyfriend, well everyone did. Besides the language barrier he fit right in.
Then we went to my dads families Thanksgiving that evening. It was a lot more people. We had a very nice time and were completely stuffed.
I know I could go into more details I just don't have a lot of time so I want to go over the basics I feel bad for taking such a long time to blog. Thanksgiving night we went to North star mall to do Black Friday at midnight. Which was really exciting except none of the stores we wanted to go to opened until 5 am. Everyone was disappointed. I wanted to go to Forever 21 and when we drove by people were camped out and everything. After the disappointment we went back home and slept I was exhausted. The next morning we tried again of course by then all the deals were gone but I still got a lot of cool things I wouldn't have found where I live. We shopped till we dropped and had a great day. We were suppose to do dinner with my grandma but it just didn't work out. Since Thursday I was feeling sick from my lower back and stomach so instead of staying later on Saturday we ended up going home early.

Overall great weekend, I'm really glad Brian got to meet my entire family :)