Precious Puppy Love

Over Thanksgiving break I stayed with my grandma and aunt Mary. Let me give you some back up information . These are great Christian people that had a rough life. They live in San Antonio and in the worst part. My aunt Mary is the oldest of 4 sisters when my grandpa wasn't there my aunt stood up to be the breadwinner, she really never had a life of her own. Another thing is that Mary had a boyfriend (when she was in high school)and they were suppose to get married it didn't work out and she hasn't dated since. She's 55 well fifty something she might be younger than that. Anyways you get the point. It's been grandma and Mary my whole life you can't have one with out the other they are two peas on a pod. Which is sad because the other sisters got married with kids ect and Mary has just always been with my grandma she's never had a chance at her own life. Now the good part :)

Recently my aunt has bought a new gorgeous house which is great because where they lived before was the "hood" there was nothing but crime and there was never just peace and quiet. It was so bad that I was scared to stay there but by the grace of God nothing ever happened to them. They have a great brand new gorgeous house and now all they have to do is sell the old one. Well in the older house across the street a man died. Of course my grandma knew them they have lived there for like 40 years.

I'm going to skip forward in my story. The son of the man that died became very fond of my aunt. You have to know that this happened months ago. So I know that Mary has been talking to someone but not that much about it because I don't live there. The reason all of this came up is because I met him over thanksgiving. I really liked him. He's an older gentle but very sweet. When he came over he brought huge beautiful things of flowers one for Mary and one for my grandma. I'm so happy I hope they work out because if Something ever happened to my grandma my aunt would be alone. Thats really sad to think about but its true. When we were all sitting down just looking at black Friday adds. He showed my aunt a bbq pit and asked her if she wanted it for Christmas. Now that he's around he's helped them get there old house ready to sell and the new one ready to move into. She said he made it very clear that if she ever needed anything that he would be there. My aunt is very hesitant about getting in a relationship with him. By the end of the trip She admitted that she liked him and of course he REALLY liked her. I'm so happy or her I wish her the best because everyone needs a companion in life. One of my other aunts called the other day and said that they all got together at her house and my aunt Mary and Melchor ( the man that likes her) were holding hands.

I think they are they cutest thing, there is something about young puppy love but I don't think age matters at all, I wish her the best.

Its been a little while!

I've been so busy lately that I've forgotten to blog. Lets see My life is absolutely great right now like I have nothing to complain about. I'm happy with my Christian life my family life and my love life. School is still a little iffy but I'm getting a hold of it. Its only been my first semester so I'm not going to give up completely.
Lets see in earlier post I wrote about the fight I had with my boyfriend about going to his house. Well after talking to my parents about how all my intentions were good I finally went over. I had a great time. We cook chicken taquitos with cabbage that you sprinkled lime juice on. It was delicious. I love cooking with him. Its a lot of fun. After that we went to watch a movie. We decided to watch Death at a funeral. We thought it was the funny black people version but instead of that it was all British white people. We were in aw the whole movie. It was not what we expected at all. I had a great evening at first I was nervous but I got to thinking, that's kind of what it would be like to live there. I could so do it. Coming home to him. The thought gives me butterflies. 
 Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving by the way. So a big step happened over Thanksgiving Brian went with us. He met my whole family. That morning we had Thanksgiving at my moms moms house. We had a great time. My grandma loved my boyfriend, well everyone did. Besides the language barrier he fit right in.
Then we went to my dads families Thanksgiving that evening. It was a lot more people. We had a very nice time and were completely stuffed.
I know I could go into more details I just don't have a lot of time so I want to go over the basics I feel bad for taking such a long time to blog. Thanksgiving night we went to North star mall to do Black Friday at midnight. Which was really exciting except none of the stores we wanted to go to opened until 5 am. Everyone was disappointed. I wanted to go to Forever 21 and when we drove by people were camped out and everything. After the disappointment we went back home and slept I was exhausted. The next morning we tried again of course by then all the deals were gone but I still got a lot of cool things I wouldn't have found where I live. We shopped till we dropped and had a great day. We were suppose to do dinner with my grandma but it just didn't work out. Since Thursday I was feeling sick from my lower back and stomach so instead of staying later on Saturday we ended up going home early.

Overall great weekend, I'm really glad Brian got to meet my entire family :)

New Me!



I'm fighting with my boyfriend over something stupid and I cant even fight back. I'm crying but I'm not hurt. I'm upset but I'm at peace with myself. I was stressed but now I'm calm. Through the bad in this situation I'm stronger. I feel great. This mindless fight that had me with tissues everywhere and make up down my face. I needed that. The fight wasnt that bad but I needed that release. I feel new, I feel fresh I could dance I could sing I can shout out because its a new me. I feel beautiful, I feel special, things I havent felt for a while I'm feeling on my own. I dont need his compliments I discovered them on my own.

This is my new outlook. I am me. There is nothing I can do to become perfect, but I am going to try my hardest. I'm am going to be a better Christian and be a Bible Chrisitan. I've been living in this world. Everything the world wants you to see thats right but is wrong. I'm going to live by what is actually right. I feel great I feel like closing my eyes looking up at the sun and taking a deep breathe in.

Perfect day!

My aunt and uncle are visiting from San Antonio. Whenever they come up we go to a little town called Salado. Its just a cute little town full of Antique stores and craft places its just really cute . The whole town is basically one main street and normally they have something going on like the first weekend of every month is full of vendors, you really just never know what you are going to find. Before my ain't and uncle came up and we knew we were going to Salado me and my mom talked about Brian going. Yesterday we mentioned it to my dad and he just lost it which doesn't make sense at all. He gets jealous or worried or something but it's strange and I have never met another person like that. So it was difficult.

The other day Brian asks me why he never gets invited to stuff I do with my family because his family when they get together they just automatically expect me to go, I don't even need an invitation. I really think its because of the age difference but it's also because of my dad. I wish I could explain him better but I just can't put him into words. Anyways I stood my ground I mean my dad has to get use to him being around eventually . Let me tell you about my day:) we got up early this morning and went out o breakfast I originally didn't invite Brian because of how my dad was acting but my dad told me to invite him to breakfast. That was a plus. Breakfast was good my uncle is a very quirky person and he's the type that will embarrass people. Everyone got along really good .My uncle tried to embarrass Brian by making him pray but Brian just did it and he prayed very good. After breakfast we went to Salado. It was fun going through all the little store with him at one point we went to a place called B. Herd. It was this little old man that did oil paintings. They were gorgeous they looked like actual pictures. All of his paintings were from actual places in Texas. Brian bought three of them and they were all from the hill country. After we were all done shopping I thought Brian was just going to to go home but my dad actually invited him back to the house. I started a pot roast that morning so my dad invited him to come eat with us. I had a blast just hanging out with everyone. The food was delicious and the company was great. After we ate Brian offered to take me to work. I ended up seeing him all day. What a great day it was.
I started writing this post on Friday and I just finished, I've been very busy lately I'll tell you more about that later!

Busy busy busy!

I wish I wasnt such a procrastinator because school work and projects are catching up with me.I have my observations due for psychology next week. Basically I have to watch people and figure out stuff about them. Like hearing, vision, gross motor skills and other stuff but I cant use my opinion. So instead of saying the subject can hear good I have to say when the subjects name was called he responded automatically. I had a test today which I think I did great on a test to study for next week and an essay due .

What else has happened this week hmm. Yesterday I went to church and that's where I did my observations. The service was about prayer and how to pray. I can pray by myself at night like the words just flow out but when I had to go on stage for the prayer line I completely froze. A little girl came up to me and her request was to pray for her dad to start attending church. My prayer sounded horrible it was choppy I'm just not use to praying for people. Instead of beating myself up I just want to learn, I want God to help me be able to pray for people so I can be better in my church. Looking back now I wish I could try again.

On Tuesday I got my iPhone and I love it! I had to wait a whole week for it because sprint ran out but now that I have it, it was well worth it. My week has been full of studying not really anything to exciting I guess that's why it is so hard to write this Post right now :) I hope everyone is having a great week and Happy Veterans Day ahead of time!

What a Jerk

I'm kind of upset at the moment. I feel very depressed I don't know if I'm pmsing or what but I just feel so down in the dumps. Anyways so you know Brian has been gone and we haven't hung out in a while. Well today I thought we could have dinner you know something. I made an effort to see him. He invited me over to cook for me which was really nice but I know I have mentioned before that my parents have letting go issues. Not my mom but my dad does. So now that my boyfriend is living by himself I just didn't feel like getting into it with my dad just to go see him. Thats why I wanted to do dinner, but no to Brian that was just the end of the world. Talking about how I let my dad ruin my life and all this other stuff. Being really rude. You know what he just moved into that house he couldn't even give me a break to talk to my parents it had to be then and there. I still don't get the big idea of why I had to go over there so bad. I really believe he just didn't want to let go of the topic of my controlling dad. I will deal with that at my own time and he shouldn't be pressuring me the way he did.I finally just said if that was the only way I'm going to see you then I don't want to see you. He complained how much he missed me and all of that crap this whole weekend but the moment he had a chance to see me  he didn't even take it. He chose to be stubborn about the situation. I'm so mad I hate when he gets stuck on a subject there is no getting him out of it. I would like someone that would rather take the chance to see me then argue about it. He stresses me out I'm already in a down mood and now I'm just mad. Ever since he left I don't feel like talking to him or seeing him. I could care less. I think its this mood I'm in but I'm not being rude or mean to him, I just don't have anything to say to him. So me making the effort to see him today to make myself feel better about us took a lot and he just threw it out the window. Guys are so complicated sometimes. I could really just scream at him but for now I'm taking the distance I so definitely need until I'm out of this mood. Don't you think he should of chosen to see me instead of fight about me coming over?

Work.

In case you didn't know I work at a nursery at my church. I love it I love taking care of the infants and watching them grow. It keeps me from having one of my own right now. Today work was really easy because no babies showed up. I think its because this weekend was the women's retreat and they came back today so everyone probably was just at home spending time with the family. Me and the teenagers that help me were just sitting around waiting for the babies to show up. While we were waiting in the nursery Mrs.Ivette came in with a special needs boy. This little boy had half of down syndrome and then something else. He was such a blessing though he knew sign language so it was cool seeing how he communicated with Mrs. Ivette. The way his face lit up when he was going from toy to toy was priceless. He was such a cute little boy and it really opened up my heart to be in his presence.