A lot has been going on

Let me go back a bit;

A couple of weekends ago me and Brian went up to Fort Worth to visit his family. This time I met everyone. It was basically the families get together for Christmas up in Goree Texas. You know where that is? Because I cant begin to tell you. Its a little town in the middle of nowhere and its a ghost town. It use to be a town full of people because of the oil mills well when the place ran out of oil it also ran out of people. Its kind of scary some of the houses it really just looks like the people just go up and left. For groceries my boyfriends grandpa has to drive up to 100 miles to the nearest store. It was fun meeting new people though we also played white elephant. I have never played before but it was a lot of fun. A kid ended up with a machete... Yeah you heard me right.

That happened on a Saturday now time for Sunday. On Sunday we went to go see the Trans Siberian Orchestra. They were AMAZING. I don't know what was better the music or the lights. Every singer was brilliant. It was a great concert and I would definitely go again. Brian is such a music geek I swear he thought he was in heaven. The funny thing is I thought I was going to hate the the concert but I turned out loving it.

This Picture showed the lights and how close we were:)

He was just a tad excited!



Now the sad part.

My Grandpa died.

This was my moms dad I haven't mentioned him before. He was 90 years old and was in very bad condition. For the longest time I felt like it hasn't hit me yet, the sadness. I also thought it never would just because I really wasn't that close to him. It hit me at the funeral. I balled like a baby I couldn't even go up to the casket to see him. This was the first funeral I have ever been to so it was weird to see him laying there in real life. I kept expecting him to move but then I just realized it was just the shell of his body. I always thought that if your a Christian you shouldn't be afraid to die. I still do , but when death is in your face its hard. I'm happy for my grandpa he's free. He can walk, run and drink water again. My grandpa might not have been a very religious man his whole life but he died a saved man.

Please pray for my family, my mom is taking this really hard.

Dun Dun Dun.

Background information.
I dated Jacob my junior year of high school. It was a great relationship we never fought and it was always an exciting time with him. He was just one of those people that could always make you laugh. We that year Christmas break I went to spend Christmas with my father so I left for about a week. Jacob cheated on me while i was gone and I was devastated. I got so upset my aunt wanted to take me to the hospital because I started hyperventilating. I have never been hurt before. For months and months after that I would still dream of him every night. I would think of him quite often and would always wonder about him. Because I could never stop thinking of him, I honestly believe he was my first real love. That was the first time a screwed me over. A year after that so last summer I think. He started talking to me again. You know how it is of course I got excited I was cautious but I was also dumb. I gave him a shot. I agreed to hang out with him and catch up. Turns out I wasn't the only girl he was talking to at the time. I wen to his place when he told me too and his roommates told me he was with this other girl. Once again I dropped him like nothing but it till hurt. I got back to the mind thinking there could be an us again. I know dumb me.

Well guess who called last night after years. Yup you got it Jacob.
I was shocked but I was curious. He told me he missed me and that he still loves me. That the past 2 years hes been miserable because I wasn't in his life. He told me he was dumb and an asshole for everything he's ever done to me and how I was the best thing that ever happened to him and he just treated me like shit. I'm using his exact words he was very very very vulgar.Can you imagine how I felt? I felt powerful, I let that boy screw me over twice and I have never been hurt before like that, and i got an apology. He told me when he goes on my facebook he sees Brians arm around me and it makes him sick. Which is funny because hes not my friend on facebook so that means hes looking me up. This whole time I thought he must have done better than me. To find out he never could that after 2 years and he's realized it, I feel pretty darn good. He called me a good 18 times because he would get mad at how happy I am with Brian and hang up. It was a strange night. A lot of good came out of it. I feel better about everything. Maybe now I can let him go completely. It also showed me how great I have it with the man that I'm with now. The one that wont hurt me and cherishes me.

Christmas Stroll

The weather was murky, and was suppose to be pouring rain but we decided to give it a shot anyways. We went Saturday night to the Christmas stroll in salado. There wasn't a lot of people there I think mainly because of the weather. It was still fun. We did lots of walking and went to a lot of the little stores. I didn't get my hot chocolate because I was actually hot. Every 1/2 a mile there was a band playing Christmas songs and there was tons of places to buy yummy foods.We got kettle corn and I think the even put some cinnamon in it. We all enjoyed ourselves, I loved seeing all the Christmas lights up. After that we all came home and me and Brian made gingerbread men. It was fun to decorate them. I mad some of us lol:

Casting crowns

Friday we went to go see Casting Crowns in concert. It was me, my parents and my dad even bought a ticket for Brian. We had a great time . It was The Afters, Sanctus Real , some girl I've never heard of and then Casting Crowns.  The put on a great performance. Theres just something about being in a room full of people that all believe the same thing you do. There were four men well young men in front of us and they were goofy but when it came down to it they had their hands in the air just worshiping. Seeing a lot of people do that always brings joy to my heart. There were people there from every age group. Young children to older people that were using walkers. All there for one purpose. To praise and to worship. Every one of the bands were really good I really enjoyed Sanctus real. The evening was great I love just lifting my hands and telling Him this is my time with you.

You have to love the holidays.

I love this time of year. Holiday after holiday seeing family you haven't seen for the other half of the year. The weather change and having to bundle up :) drinking hot drinks, baked goods, presents, love, happiness and new beginnings. As stressful and hectic as the holidays can get, it's the busiest time of year you never run out of things to do. I love that. I've mentioned before the little cute town in Salado. This weekend is the Christmas stroll. And if the weather permits I am so going! It's just a little stroll with vendors and all the Christmas lights are up. They have the horse and carriage going up and down the road and there are carolers. I'm excited to go with Brian just because it's kind of romantic. This event is what really sets me off into the Christmas spirit. The weather being chilly and drinking hot chocolate . It's a lot of fun and I just can not wait!

Your Great Name

Redeemer, My Healer, Lord Almighty
My savior, Defender, You are My King

Jesus, Worthy is the Lamb that was slain for us, Son of God and Man
You are high and lifted up; and all the world will praise Your great name

This song is "Your Great Name" by Natalie Grant.
I notice whenever I listen to this song in the morning on my way to school. I raise my hand to praise, but everyone in the oncoming traffic thinks I'm waving to them :)